Get to know the Bible!
I got to know the Bible reasonably well. I read passages most days, sometimes studying things quite deeply. I read through the whole Bible every few years.
‘I have hidden your word in my heart, that I might not sin against you.’ Psalm 119:11. That’s a good one, and it’s true as well. Knowing the scriptures and thinking scripturally definitely helps with our Christian walk, and it made me strong on a daily basis.
Letting God’s word minister to me cured me of depression. In my early life I used to get depressed periodically. This continued after I committed my life to Christ. Nothing seemed to help. But then I began to meditate on what the Bible said about me, especially parts of the New Testament.
Galatians 2:20 was helpful – ‘I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me.’
Romans 6 as well. ‘We died to sin; how can we live in it any longer?’
I read some of Colin Urquhart’s books – ‘In Christ Jesus’ was particularly helpful. As my knowledge of what the Lord said about me developed, I rose out of my depressions. I can truthfully say, I have not been depressed since the age of around 20/21 – that’s well over 20 years.
I give God all the glory for this. But this did not enable me to overcome this occasional lapse into pornography. I still fell into this, especially when I was tired.
I tried scaring myself with Hebrews 10:26; ‘If we deliberately keep on sinning after we have received the knowledge of the truth, no sacrifice for sins is left, but only a fearful expectation of judgement and of raging fire that will consume the enemies of God.’
Nevertheless, and worryingly, the compulsion was greater at times than the fear.
What was I to do?