Then Jesus told his disciples a parable to show them that they should always pray and not give up. He said: “In a certain town there was a judge who neither feared God nor cared about men. And there was a widow in that town who kept coming to him with the plea, ‘Grant me justice against my adversary.’
“For some time he refused. But finally he said to himself, ‘Even though I don’t fear God or care about men, yet because this widow keeps bothering me, I will see that she gets justice, so that she won’t eventually wear me out with her coming!’ “
And the Lord said, “Listen to what the unjust judge says. And will not God bring about justice for his chosen ones, who cry out to him day and night? Will he keep putting them off? I tell you, he will see that they get justice, and quickly. However, when the Son of Man comes, will he find faith on the earth?”
My wife asked me – ‘Do you pray about it?’. Yes. Yes I do! I prayed, fasted, cried out to God many times. ‘Here I am again, Lord. How can you possibly keep accepting me?’. ‘What am I to do?’. I suppose that ultimately that prayer was answered in that He gave me some guidance to what worked. Yet my prayer was a long standing one spanning many years.
As well as personal prayer, I sometimes asked trusted friends to pray for me, especially when the problem was more severe. This helped – but only temporarily. It got to the point where I was getting embarrassed bringing the subject up again, feeling I had let others down as well as myself, so I would stop talking about it for long periods.
The Lord didn’t appear to answer me for many years. But I never gave up. There are a few other weaknesses which God has helped me to overcome, even though I thought I never would. This kept me going on this one. I knew there was an answer. I just hadn’t found it yet.