We got rid of the TV – which was, on occasion, a source of temptation. So that made things better. And I gave my wife the administrators password for the computer and limited my own access. This made things better. The more powerful stuff was out of my reach. But it didn’t remove the compulsion. And I could always find something that would bypass the parental controls and find something to look at.
I even became quite adept at it, I am ashamed to say.
“You have heard that it was said, ‘You shall not commit adultery.’ But I say to you that everyone who looks at a woman with lustful intent has already committed adultery with her in his heart. If your right eye causes you to sin, tear it out and throw it away. For it is better that you lose one of your members than that your whole body be thrown into hell. And if your right hand causes you to sin, cut it off and throw it away. For it is better that you lose one of your members than that your whole body go into hell.
I took this scripture very seriously. I tried to cleanse my home of all sources of temptation. I can win the battle ‘out there’, but in my home my guard is down. Therefore I want nothing in my home that would be a trap.
This was, however, like other things, something that helped but did not get to the root of the issue. I wasn’t free.